part IV - salvation

It was what I got... but somehow it wasn't what I needed.

Tell me, if you could undo what was done,
even if it makes the world a duller place,
for just a selfish act to make things well for you,
Would you do it?

I wouldn't.

Because that's who I'm.
If my cheese was ever moved,
I will get more, one which tastes even better.

But then,
Some are just exclusive.
Its whiff just remains.
It stinks.
It smells.
It sucks.
I don't want it.
But it remains.
So very cancerous.
I wonder why.

Yet...

It's so good.
I can pepper any dish with it...
It's like tyramine... or MSD.
It makes you happy.
Suddenly I might blink,
And bubbles would appear all around.
It won't be such a surprise.
It's pleasant.

Can I do without it?
I am studying with it.
I work with it.
It will be in my future.
At least in the next couple of years.

First year came and passed like that.
Cliche as it may sound,
There has been a fair share of ups and downs.

Sadly,
More downs recently.
Sometimes,
When I feel it's going back up,
it tumbles again.

But I'm strong.
I can wait forever.



Oh. And Club 21 has got a new member =)

crying foul

Why didn't Adam Lambert win??? Wtf!! Mood killer man! He was the only bright spark (ok dark.. whatever) of this season's American Idol. He was the reason why I watched this season. It has been a joke from the start to include a fourth judge + the rest of things to 'freshen' things up. I think nothing has been done to catch my attention. This includes the 'save' thing which I thought was soooo lame...

And don't let me get it started about the finale. Ok it was fabulous to see so many stars... (Carrie was so pretty) but I think it looked a bit too much on the grandeur side. Perhaps it was good, but looked a bit tad too tacky and commercialised.

But I digress...

What I had problem with was with the judges particularly Kara. Ok la... bikini girl was awarded some shit award... yeah she's back...with bigger boobs + some tan ...but does she, as a panel, have to come up on stage to sing with her (both had a row earlier in the auditions), dressed differently; like in bikinis as well??!! Well done to degrade the judges' already tarnished reputation this season.

Family show, can?

And this year's finale song, co-written by Kara, what the hell was it all about. The lyrics were horrible. I also could have sworn Simon scoffed the whole thing. I thought it was already a great idea in the past to let people of the public to write the song for the competition. I felt sorry that Kris had to sing "No Boundaries" in the end after the results again. He looked like he dreaded to. But perhaps it was for another reason. Right until the end, he still felt he wasn't good enough to win. Or he probably realised that he will be in the way of American's dream after already shocked us in the previous round by outlasting Danny.

Speaking of which, I am quite disappointed that Danny's fans jumped on the Kris bandwagon instead. I don't want to mention their common background la... but both are real gentleman, very nice guys. I have no idea what they see in Adam. Perhaps he's way too unorthodox, weird, flamboyant... but his talent is undeniable. The winner should go to one with the best voice, and charisma! Heck! Plus, you may never imagine it but a rocker like him can be such a nice guy. He was very sporting; didn't show any frustration; instead he was so happy for Kris when Ryan announced the results. Who says humility only belongs to Kris??

At the end, Ryan had to make sure Kris doesn't give his two cents worth of thoughts. The later repeatedly say, "But Adam..." Even Simon didn't look as impress as he would have suggested moments earlier. He was prepared to just sit, while the other three stood to give a standing ovation. I am beginning to think, particularly this season, that America have decided that they are the 'better' judges and whatever Simon says, they don't have to do no more. Then, I would imagine, Simon will then be prepared to quit the game, if he is no more the main player. Also this time, Ryan did not announce the difference in votes or the percentage split between the two. What I perceived the results to be is either a very huge or very small difference. Both are somewhat too controversial - if released. Anyway, up is where Adam will go from here... Watch him rise!

Adam Lambert and Kris Allen

teehee

After ManU's victory over Arsenal in the semis, My friend's status on Facebook reads:

Hey Arsenal, bend over..

A lil comment which made my day. Although the way we booked our tickets to Rome was fabulous enough XD

Time to Carpe Diem!

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Hahaha! This was done after ManU's championship coronation after our league game against Arsenal.

Glory, Glory Manchester United!

this song rawks!

Daughtry's second album, Leave This Town, will be released on July 14, 2009.

not gugu

Amidst all the different versions of Pokerface, I scoured a few and these are my picks! Enjoy~



Imagine Chris Brown singing this song ie. poke-her-face. Haha! Kidding. Chris, you still my homie!

I love this cover up! Just picture yourself waking up in ungodly hours to this song... and suddenly you are in a bar somewhere in New Orleans. And you see the old jukebox in the corner. (Probably broken as well, considering the repeating lines in the lyrics)

Sounds so 50s or 60s-ish right?

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Turn up your volume for this.

This version is simply amazing! Especially at time 0:40 and 1:50.

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*Gasps!* Check this guy out!! Makes you wonder whether this is the original version right?

it has been long overdue...

The 1918 flu pandemic (commonly referred to as the Great Spanish Flu or The Great Swine Flu) was an influenza pandemic that spread to nearly every part of the world. It was caused by an unusually virulent and deadly Influenza A virus strain of subtype H1N1. Historical and epidemiological data are inadequate to identify the geographic origin of the virus. Most of its victims were in the prime of life, in contrast to most influenza outbreaks which predominantly affect juvenile, elderly (probably benefit from earlier exposure), or otherwise weakened patients. The pandemic lasted from March 1918 to June 1920, spreading even to the Arctic and remote Pacific islands. It is estimated that anywhere from 20 to 100 million people were killed worldwide, or the approximate equivalent of one third of the population of Europe, more than double the number killed in World War I. Almost 80% of American casualties in the war was the result of the flu; not enemy fire. This extraordinary toll resulted from the extremely high illness rate of up to 50% and the extreme severity of the symptoms, suspected to be caused by cytokine storms. The pandemic is estimated to have affected up to one billion people: half the world's population at the time. This pandemic has been described as "the greatest medical holocaust in history" and may have killed more people than the Black Death.

- adapted from Wikipedia

But this swine flu is a new form of the old nemesis, and has been circulating widely since the "Russian flu" outbreak reintroduced H1N1 to the human population in 1977. And so, the virus has finally decided to come out of ‘hiding’ and try its hand on a new generation of humans. This shows that virus outbreaks are chronic. We should never discount that a particular disease has been completely eradicated, just because it hasn’t been around for decades. These types of viruses or microbes are the most deadly as they remain dormant. They will take their time to evolve into super-virus or super-microbes which are more resistant to our current drugs. The new strain, A/H1N1 strain of swine flu virus has the combination that of birds’, pigs’, and humans’ flu virus but still very treatable. Another reason to the genesis of deadly diseases and outbreaks from animals particularly livestock is the fact that these animals are constantly fed with antibiotics for the sole purpose to prevent any pandemics. In fact, 70% of known antibiotics are used on them. They should be practically immune to everything right? But this measure is like us humans shooting at our own foot; we get more than we give. By doing so, we are only giving microbes more chance and luxury to evolve as they like. And I don’t have to say it twice that microbe can divide and multiply incessantly and at such a rapid rate. If they multiply into a ‘mutant’ form and somehow found that it suits the condition around them, they could ‘spread this news’ to the other microbes and that is how a new strain is formed. One which is highly resistant to antibiotics.

The current WHO pandemic alert phase for the Swine Flu is 4. **** Latest! It's now 5!

Some facts about swine flu:

How does it spread?

- do not typically infect humans – except in close proximity ie farmers

- human-human spread “documented”

- not transmitted by food – internal temperature of >70°C kills swine flu virus

Signs & Symptoms (S&S)

- flu like – fever, lethargy, runny nose, cough, sore throat, lack of appetite

- to some – vomiting, diarrhoea

Treatment (Tx)

- resistant to two common drugs – amantadine & rimantadine

- vaccines for human seasonal flu would not provide protection – H1N1 virus for human and swine are different

- “seed vaccine” has been specifically tailored to this swine flu – will be manufactured if deemed necessary

- Swiss drug company Roche Holding AG said WHO has enough anti-flu Tamiflu (first defence against influenze pandemic – effective against bird flu) for 5 million people

o Full Tx (5 days) – 10 capsules twice a day within 48 hours of onset of s&s

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I think this pandemic is potentially VERY SERIOUS. History may repeat itself. Take care folks!

Wash your hands before eating!

get inspired today

Shame on you. This could be the greatest night of our lives, but you're going to let it be the worst. And I guarantee a week won't go by in your life you won't regret walking out, letting them get the best of you. Well, I'm not going home. We've come too far! And I'm going to stay right here and fight for this lost cause. A day may come when the courage of men fails... but it is not THIS day. The line must be drawn HERE. This far, no further! I'm not saying it's going to be easy. You're going to work harder than you ever worked before. But that's fine, we'll just get tougher with it! If a person grits his teeth and shows real determination, failure is not an option. That's how winning is done! Believe me when I say we can break this army here, and win just one for the Gipper. But I say to you what every warrior has known since the beginning of time: you've got to get mad. I mean plum mad dog mean. If you would be free men, then you must fight to fulfill that promise! Let us cut out their living guts one inch at a time, and they will know what we can do! Let no man forget how menacing we are. We are lions! You're like a big bear, man! This is YOUR time! Seize the day, never surrender, victory or death... that's the Chicago Way! Who's with me? Clap! Clap! Don't let Tink die! Clap! Alright! Let's fly! And gentlemen in England now abed shall know my name is the Lord when I tell our enemies that they may take our lives, but they'll never take our Independence Day!

'Heroes' needs a booster shot

You know what Sylar remind me of??

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He reminds me of a bacteria!!

Why you asked??

Well... he takes people's power like how a bacteria does!! Okay... maybe not exactly like that. But this is how bacteria works. The reason why they are highly adaptable is that they are able to adsorb genetic components from the genetic pool around them in just a short period of time. For example you are a bacteria. One day you decide to fly. So you decide to take the genetic transcript from a grasshopper. Now you can fly! Then if you decided to go for a swim, you take the necessary components of a shark. Now you can swim... and terrorise people... and so much more!

This is how bacteria works. This is why most bacteria-causing diseases can evolve. That is why after awhile, antibiotics can't work against them. And people... okay... hopefully I can provide that service one day... have to come up with different drugs to combat these minute monsters. Also, when they evolve, they can somehow share their genetic components to other bacteria so as they can be immune to the antibiotics as well. I really admire their unity.

Which brings us to vaccination... I spent so many weeks reading about this for my poster presentation and report for the last semester. It was really interesting! Especially the debate on whether kids should or shouldn't be vaccinated. So each time I am asked about this topic, I can passionately speak from both sides of the debate. Anyway, the preparation went quite well I would say. My group and I even had time to joke about it.

We sang...

Immuniser, immune-immuniser,
You're a immuniser
Oh, immuniser, oh, you're a immuniser, baby
You, you, you are.
You, you, you are.
Immuniser, Immuniser, Immuniser (Immuniser)

Ahh... The things pharmacist do :p

Anyway, I am still waiting for the penultimate episode of Heroes to finish downloading. Heroes have been rather lame of late. I hope there is a good ending to Season 3.

I need more music in my life

Going to make this brief:

*Lazy*

I had a dentist appointment today. Thought it would be just a checkup. After all, it was FREE. But the doctor told me that my teeth was dirty ie got plaques. I could see it for myself on the mirror.

So should I pay RM65 to get all those yucky stuff off?

Well I did.

My teeth haven't been this thoroughly clean for a year plus already I think. So hopefully, many bacteria colonies have been terminated.

While, the doctor was scaling, I could have sworn amid the gushing of water from her equipments and the scratching of her tools on my teeth, I could have sworn I heard faint voice as if scratching teeth at the right resonance could somehow tap into radio frequency or perhaps something else. Creepy.

watch this

Want to know what triumph is all about? You all so got to watch this video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-KiGva9dV4