at the edge

I feel that I am now lying on a thin wall. I could fall either way from here. Any way I fall, I will get the same results but different consequences. Either way, it will hurt. And I think the wall is getting thinner. It's like your comfort zone being remove from right under your feet.

What is it about a forced decision? I feel like a trapped King in a game of chess. There's only one step to move. The one which i dread to take.

I put myself up here. I guess I will accept whichever way I fall. It's better to have seen the world from up here, rather than not to have been up here at all :) I feel blessed with this chance.

Ark

2012?? Or just a week long of torrential tropical storm?? If the rain here in Malaysia gets any worse, we will have to start building our Ark.

not enough

Sometimes I am glad when you look unhappy.

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Sometimes I wonder... I always do. I fix a thought here and there, and I will keep going; analysing from every possible angles; seeing things from different views; providing plausible answers on and on.

I guess I am a thinker... someone rational. But that doesn't mean I am carved from the rocks of Broga Hill. I am still human. Very much so.

I know that you intended no harm. But it's the truth that was not let known that infuriated me... that hurt me. It's tough hearing it from someone else, in case you didn't know. I thought of all people, you would be the most understanding one. I guess I judged a bit too soon.

I sat down and thought, and think of you. Each time I see you, I will just stare in silence, hoping somehow I could reach to you telepathically. But it's so hard. And each time I thought I found an answer, more questions, painful questions came up. Why are you doing this to me? Is there no better way to deal with this things? Are you purposely acting like this to make me angry?? Why is talking so difficult?

Probably you thought ignorance would have been a bliss to me. It might be true... But I wished you had told me. I wished I had known the news from you. At least, I didn't have to be the last to know.

Yet...

Yet...

Yet... Sighs... I understand why you did it. You didn't want me to be hurt. I would have done just the same. I guess I was mad because you did the right thing. I was mad because you didn't give me any reason to hate you. I am mad because I am still drowning in the strong feelings I have for you.

You are simply amazing. I just can't tell you enough...

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But I am always glad to see you cheerful again...

if the shoes fit...

I found a shoe.
Like a Cinderella Fairy Tale,
I know it could only belong to one.
The French Light.
But I noticed she had hers.

Still,
I was curious.
I didn't want to just keep it.

I have found many in the past.
And it was such an ache keeping them.
So I learned to not be a pack rat.
But share what I got...

Her pairs were nice,
and as I recalled,
has been with her long.

But,
I had to let her know,
about this pair,
even risking...
risking it all...

It's better than pretending...
It's better than regretting...

And so,
I listened to my heart.

It took me awhile...
But I finally decided to ask,
if she was missing one.

My H-e-l-l-o was a stammer,
But,
I made it to ask her about it...
And,
She wasn't...

Such a fool I am...

P.S - Thanks for being so cool about it... :)
I <3 U

I will...

For the greater good, I will...

If HE says that we weren't - that we may cause the world to grieve, or cry because of jealousy, or if we are able spread further happiness to others by being apart...

For the greater good, I will...

If HE says that our chemistry will cause an unbalance to the rest of the world - that the world will just stop turning from below our feet and propagate to the rest of the Earth...

For the greater good, I will...

If HE says that there will be a turning point in the future - and that the current timing isn't right, then, wait, I shall...

For the greater good, I will...

Eeyore eyes

Reasons why I am tired all week...

1. Last Saturday's All American Rejects' concert!! Friggin awesome can!! But super icky! We were all packed like slimy-sticky-sardines in a compacted tin can under a 1-tonne tractor in the middle of the desert on the hottest day of the year.

Not a wanting to sound crude.. but yeah... not a place for people below the height of 1.50m. Smelly armpits, and droplets of sweat in hot stuffy environment doesn't maketh a free sauna.

BUT... they rocked!!

2. Last Sunday - Terry Fox run. Only 4 hrs of precious sleep isn't the best way to prepare for a charity jog. I aimed to run 5km. But damn... only could endure 3km. Sighs... disappointed in myself. Timing was alright.. (19 mins) but I was so tired. Oh wells... first run in like 6 weeks. Couldn't ask for more, I guess.. Where's all my RC power I wonder..

3. Stayed back on Monday and Tuesday although I only had 1 and 3 hrs of classes respectively.

4. Watched "This Is It" on Monday night - then only reached home past midnight. The movie was awesome!! The dances were incredible. The stage presentation was like so wuhtuhfarkish - I have never seen or imagined such thing could be done in a concert!! I was definitely in awe!! Michael still had it in him.... sighs...

urrghhhh... UURRRGHHHH!!

So hungry...

The sight of these three creatures make me think of food... *slobbers*

HONEY bees


HAMster

BUTTERfly


FEEeeed meee!!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

still busy... :(

Not a tweet:- Writing an article for magazine...

very powerful

Sorry folks.. have been busy... hence just the videos I can show for.. I will blog whenever I can!

drunk guy

He looked like a tortoise on its back try to flip itself back upright! If there's a lesson to be learnt from this: DETERMINATION!! I salute this guy! Have a goal, and you will have determination!