super like!!

Best goal celebration ever!!

powerful

like the wind...

What the pastor said the other day at church was true. Most of the things we do in life can only be pursued, but not achieved. There's a never ending desire for something we want in life, bak kata pepatah, kasi betis tapi nak paha. Something la.. my Malay is horripipible.

In other words, if our goal is to be rich; when will we ever say it's enough? Or when we are climbing the corporate ladder, when can we say, "oh... I think I have reached high enough, thank you very much. No more raise or promotions for me please. Give it to my rival." It's not very feasible. We are humans. We crave desire. We always want to outdo the other person, or rather outdo ourselves.

Mind you, this is not a bad quality. It's excellent in fact. But we have to know the limits, otherwise like what the pastor said, it's like chasing wind. I am not here to preach that I am holier than thou. I ain't perfect myself. Life's a gift. The time spent with those closest to you is the most important to you. Nothing else matters. Believe you me, nothing else is more fulfilling than spending time with your family and God Himself. Something which I haven't been doing much lately...



As I count down the days I have left in Malaysia... the days left I am at home..., yes... I am excited, but mostly I am living in denial. I am looking forward to going, but in retrospect, I am having anxieties as well. Either way, fact is.. I am going, and I am going to miss everyone, my family, my friends, my home...

People all go through the same thing, and along the way, they will undergo a journey of self-discovery. And it will all be revealed to them in daily lessons... It just doesn't involve me alone... It involves all of you as well.

As I lay in my bed, the clock ticks loudly, signaling the passing of time, in rhythmically haunting wave. It sweeps by and through me, not waiting a second for me at all. I can see... I can feel it, I can see what it does... like the wind. It registers to me what time does to us all. It leaves a mark we cannot trace back; we can't get it back. More precious than anything in this world, time should be our treasure. And I shall treasure every bit of it left with the ones I love...

It's happening... and just like time, and just like the wind... so fleeting... so brief... yet you would be able to feel it, you would be able to see what it does... It's Him, our Lord. And I thank God, I have Him in my life.

Let's share what we have left...

Pray for me...

Jordan

montages...

Who I am...

What I like...

What I do...

What I drink...

that's why Coke is numero uno!

follow the wind

Never fish in your own pond.

Sometimes I marvel how smart I was when I was younger. I wonder how come I knew the world much better then than I do now. They always say as you age, you gather more experience, and then you can poke fun at the naive-ness of the younger ones. Somehow or rather, I defied that logic, and ultimately the universal law, and I got myself caught in a predicament, I thought I didn't have to go through.

I love my neighbours. But if my young self was my Jiminy Cricket, and if he was standing on my shoulders, putting words into my ear, well.. what he would say is that I love my neighbours a bit too much... and that I should stay clear and not get involved.

But... I didn't heed his advice. Instead, I brushed him off my shoulders, while wearing a tight smug look/smirk on my face. I guess I can't blame myself. Things happen. Stars align. Stupid cupids.

1. It always start with an attraction, something which the person said or did which gets stuck in your mind. While other voices try to reach me, I will try to listen, but more often than not, I will scoff at them and proceed to just being me... persistent yet stubborn. And so, I began to believe.

2. Next I started noticing things that I would usually turn away from. At this point, I should have known that perhaps we wouldn't make it so far... that we might not belong; that we might never meant to be. But I was crazy. So I bargained. I crossed this barrier... where I couldn't look back, or change my mind anymore. I built something new in my heart.

3. So, when I realised that I could possibly live with that flaw; it was like submission. I give in to everything. I learn to accept. I was proud of myself in fact. Usually these flaws would cause me to look away, but now I am willing to have everything as a whole package. No more judging, just appreciating who the person really is. I look at these flaws, and I turned it into something beautiful.

4. Then there was the added perks. I started seeing the beauty of having so and so with me. It was simply amazing. I feel like we are both glowing among the thick crowd of people; that we were the centres of the universe.

5. However, then I was left making mistakes... saying the wrong things, overdoing things for so and so. These were perhaps the tipping point. From here on, it's a dovetail spiral. Every fantasy I ever conjured up were snatched away, and reality struck. Bubbles burst. Every song you hear suddenly are the emo ones. Everyday seems to be gloomy. Nothing seemed to be left for me...

6. We would talk to clear things up; to see where we are... and it would make sense for awhile. But even with all the things being cleared up, there's still the purgatory stage. You find that your life can't function as well anymore. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night... and it's cold and dark, and I would realise she's not there. You start to question everything that has happen since the attraction. What happened between then and now?? While figuring that out, I feel very much to be taken somewhere else. For me, I tried to forget the world and just live...

7. If only that would work. But it's easier said than done. It is hard to give up on the things we believe so much in. I kept believing in destiny, that we are meant for each other. But I now I know, it's probably just a fairy tale. So, I decide to confront so and so and make everything clear to us once more. I was prepared for anything I guess. And so when when that was out of the way... I know I was by myself. Everything that I miss mean nothing anymore. Nothing hurts more than realizing she meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to her.

8. I always watch so and so from a distance, wishing the best... wishing for her happiness. But then... it went well... too well. The pain started to return to me. I didn't want to feel it. Nothing good can come from it. And somehow I couldn't take it, and so I was sucked into a mad world, and my alter ego was sent back to the real world. Someone who looked like me but who was the total opposite of me took my place. So there was the fallout. I was cold. I didn't watch the way I spoke. And immediately I knew I wasn't myself. To her, I was a stranger. To me, I was a monster... an out-of-control one. I lost my groove that day. I felt I don't know myself anymore.

It's so easy to feel sorry for yourself, to let the alter ego control you forever. But what's brave is to always take control of yourself once more and patch things up. Co-existence/mutualism is a natural occurrence. It does happen... everywhere; and I believe that's where we are right now :)

you can do it

sigggghhhhssss

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about a mouse

It all started with a mouse...

Zodiac Calendar

The best things always do...

Mickey Mouse in Steamboat Willie.

However, some mice including other animals like monkeys, cats, and dogs are being used as live subjects in laboratories. Why now in the 21st century must animal testing still be conducted?? We have cloned human body parts before; why can't we put those to testing. Animals are living things. They are God's gift to us. We have no rights at all to put them through this inhumane painful procedures for our own benefit. What do they get in return??? Ask yourselves. Just because we have the brains; it doesn't mean we can lose our heart and let animals pay dividends to help solve our needs.

It's a conscience problem. Vivisection is definitely con-science. All in the name of saving costs I would say. Like the girl in the video say... mouse or mice are not little men. Whatever tests they are put through, doesn't offer any conclusive results anyway. So why go through all that?

What makes us human is that we are able to make the right choices. We may fumble at first, but we always learn from mistakes. I will let you judge whether you can say animal testing is right or wrong.


We need another 2000 signature for this petition to stop the animal testing facility in Malacca.

The best things do start with a mouse. Click your mouse on the link, and make your choice.

the last lecture

This video is about 75 mins long, but do watch it.
It's about how to live your life.

Okay.. for now...

too cool

straightening out priorities

I am not good at juggling, I must admit.
Sometimes I get distracted.
Mind busy thinking about other things.
But can you say that I am not good if I purposely drop one of the balls?

1 more month

I left office early today. I was all too exhausted from my lack of sleep due to the World Cup finals. Of course, I had the Oranje flag flying... and it was disappointing... I turned off the TV the moment the whistle was blown. Too much I have to comment about the game. The referee was questionable. Puyol was so unsportsmanlike. Robben was just wasteful.

It was the kind of game not parallel to the excitement exuded from the 3rd 4th placing game between Germany and Uruguay. At least I got half my predictions correct, but not like a certain Paul. Paul has become a pop culture. I hate him. (Okay.. I am talking like he's a person) But whatever la.. impressive record.. I am not an octopus person. The odds of him getting all 8 correct was 1/256. And his streak has not been broken yet. One would doubt that he will be retired now. Who knows? Can we use him to see if 2012 exist?

Overall... it was a good... wait... a great world cup :)

This song seems to befit the event... which brought the world together :)


Anyway... some pictures of GSK after exactly 2 months here.

A pouch containing a lavender soap...

Colleague got me this from Hokkaido from the recent company trip. Quite cute. It's funny how she said this is the most "boy-suitable" thing she could find in Japan.

Part of GSK.


Yean's New Ribena Artwork launch. The design on the bottle looks awesome! The purple is now really outstanding and eye-catching! And to the right, some drawings made by SCSOA. Very nice drawings.. All sold for charity :)


The New Sensodyne Rapid Relief Promo Truck starts its nationwide tour to promote the newest
variant.


Boss entering the "opened" Sensodyne Box. (Noticed it's 3D)

Anyway, do catch the truck! :D It started at Subang today. I can provide the schedule if you are interested. Basically there would be detailing about Rapid Relief - everything about it, including how it works; free dental check-ups, free samples.


Help overcome your sensitive teeth with Sensodyne Rapid Relief.. Just takes 60s to work ;)

what

I would do to get back everything I have lost in the last two weeks...

in my blue jeans

When I started working in GSK, I didn't quite know what I was expecting. I guess I wasn't thinking much. I kept wondering if I could survive the 12-week long placement. Now about halfway into it, I feel that the end can't come any slower. In other words, I am rather enjoying myself. I definitely could see myself in pharmaceutical industry. It's testament to GSK and how much they have exposed me so far. Although in some moments, I wished they would give me a little bit more responsibility, I can still safely say, I have no regrets trying this out. I am having the time of my life here.

It's true I am still fresh. Through my eyes, I still see things that could be better. I have not reached the stage where I would just accept things as it is. I guess it's good that I can rebel about things now. Improvements can be made, and I can see the future.

But I digress, I am only a guy in blue jeans. I am not yet a boss of the company; one who wears LV coats or Clark shoes... although I can confidently say that I am halfway there ;) No one can deny me the rights to see things my way. I guess I have my own ways... but I always sing my praises to the One who is always by my side to guide me what should be done.

In my opinion, I feel the best person to get advice from, or the ones who can tell you a lot about their job are those who are in the middle of the company; whether in terms of position or years served. If you ask the newer ones, they are pretty much like you, but they are able to share stories a bit on their previous company. Those can be quite interesting, a true representative of this versus that. But, if you ask those at the top, they won't reveal much. They have reputations to take care of... whether it is the company's or their very own. And I feel they choose their words too carefully.

Now.. if I am a reporter.. I think that's not what I want...

I would like to have the story told as it is... from all angles. And I know I can get that from the "middle". They are the true experts, the driving force of the company. They know everything about the things they are selling, they are the ones who make the money, they are the ones who can be honest to us.

But again I digress.... I am a student.. an inquisitive and curious one. All I want to do is learn as much as time allows me to...

"Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn." -- Benjamin Franklin

one of those days..

:):

haha.. sighs..

shaking hands

I love this comic... (Taken from TheOatmeal). It's cute and funny!

It totally depicts some people I know... Well.. hope you enjoy!

marketing is fun!

Some more food pictures!

Something Western this time.

My junior big breakfast.

Location somewhere in Ampang. The place is called "The Bakery". Their food is quite decent. But a tad bit pricey. Like my plate above... it is RM20. But the toasted bread was good! And the sausage.. delightful!

I wished I had gotten what a colleague got though... (although it took super long)

THIS.

Anyway.. .I did not go back to work after that.. (we lunched for nearly 2 hours!)... instead I did my interviews with some pharmacists.. It wasn't always pleasant.. But some of them were genuinely nice to talk to! Some of them.. well.. not so.. I wished I had not wasted my time with them..

But I digress... SO .. I went to 15 pharmacies in 4 hours - 7 interviews. Not bad I would say :) :) About 20 mins each pharmacy I visited including my travels..! AWESOMENESS!

It was a tired day... bumped into a teacher from Nottingham at KL Sentral too... :)

guess the *ahem*

Got my *ahem* today.. Wonder what I shall do with it.. Use it tomorrow? Or keep it for something more useful? ;)