Sabah - teaser

On the Eve of Christmas, we woke up early for a 5 hours-road winding-stomach churning-bladder busting-journey from Sandakan to Kota Kinabalu. The only stop we made was at Ranau. About halfway through the journey. We stopped at the Petronas Station. Perhaps due to luck or convenience, every other road traveler also stopped to take a leak there. The stench was horrible to say the least. Peee-yooo-wtf #$%#@ can be said is only an understatement. It was a stench you never could live through. A cigarette could really lit up the whole place, not because of the petroleum, but because of the methane gas accumulating in the toilet. Maybe this was how they produce their petroleum, from people's waste.


Anyway, I actually had a powerful urge to go. But I figured I could hold on and last through the journey all the way to Karambunai. So, I just took a leak and we were on our way. Then, just then, I knew I couldn't hold any longer. Awful luck? Maybe.

We passed by a fruit market, and my aunt and mom went down to buy some. I stormed out of the 4WD, and went from stall to stall in search for a toilet. I found one not far off, and it was like my burden was lifted. I hopped back into the ride, and felt relief. I wiped the little beads of sweat on my forehead, with clean hands of course. Lucky we wanted fruits? Maybe.

Karambunai was beautiful! We even had free internet connection! It was like paradise! And for dinner, we ate like Kings! Beef, turkey, chicken, lamb, salmon, prawns, etc! I realised my other friends probably had simpler Christmas Eve dinner. So, I was thankful. A friend texted me and said I was so lucky to have a scrumptious meal. Maybe.

The next day, I diarrhoea-ed another 3 times! So, half my day in paradise was wasted in my room. Because of this, I didn't have the time to visit a friend in UMS. Ouch! Maybe.

But anyway, the rest of the time in Paradise was awesome!! We had the time of our lives! I was starting to dread that this holiday was about to end. Maybe.

Then we headed back to Kota Kinabalu (KK). We would spend a night there before flying off. We dropped by at Lok Kawi Wildlife Park. It is a newly open Zoo in KK. So when we got there, they wanted to check our IC to see if we are eligible for nationality discounts. I rummaged through my wallet and found it was missing!! I was like so scared!! Freaked out.. !! Everyone was like trying to help me remember where I'd misplaced it. Was it at the Turtle Island jetty at Buli Sim Sim?? Was it at the laundry in Sandakan?? Everyone was coming up with solutions, more worried how I was to get home. UNLLLUCCCKYY???! Maybe.

My sis grabbed my wallet and thoroughly checked for me while I was skeptical she would uncover anything. But a minute later, she ended my ordeal. It was tucked away in a pocket I usually wouldn't use! I wanted to kick myself. I apologised to everyone for the massive unnecessary heart attack. Phew.. Maybe.

The next day, we had another scare. At the airport, apparently someone had taken my cousin's ticket! It was not known who... perhaps hackers or someone more sinister. I tried to negotiate my way around my thoughts about the possibilities. On the other hand, all the other adults (parents) were more vocal to the officers in-charge, demanding that we get another ticket. They had asked us to pay for another, which actually seemed rather unacceptable. After hours of arguing... I thought we were going to miss our flight, we managed to get the ticket without paying. Rightfully, considering the circumstances and the reasons which I would not mention here. Fortunate? Maybe.

We got home... home sweet home... The next day, I had plan to detox. And the day after that (yesterday)... for some unfortunate reason, I woke up with a headache. I had breakfast, which I thought I wasn't able to finish. An hour later, I vomited everything out. I slept the next few hours thinking that it was the milk, probably because it was near expiry. (After holidays... not enough food at home.) But after nap, I was still groggy. It was 4pm. And I had not eaten the whole day. I went down to grab something. But I found out I couldn't even finish a slice of bread. I did the maths and thought this could be serious. I texted a friend. I asked for the symptoms of Denggi and Malaria, just in case. The reply came agonisingly slow... about 15 minutes later. It nearly match for Denggi. My friend asked if I have red spots on my leg. I said "Yes". I had always assumed the spots which I had gotten a week earlier were from sand flies. I was only thinking that I could be hospitalised and that my studies/preparations for exams could be affected. Maybe.

I saw the doctor later that day, only after vomiting for the second time... And like I said in my previous post, slept 18 hours... And now I feel slightly better. Maybe.

I didn't inform other people for fear that it would cause some unnecessary concerns, especially uni friends. I know they are a worry-some bunch. But I love them. So.. I am okay now.. I guess stories like this are not uncommon. Life is like a rollercoaster. One moment, you are on a high, the next you are not. If only, it were so much simpler. If only, we were more in control of our fate. But then again, that's life. So many things can happen in between here and there, now and the future. We just have to... live like everything is planned... so we don't have to worry... because everything would have been planned and known... I don't know. Maybe.

dying

I am not feeling very well at all. Yesterday, I slept 18 hrs+. Today? So far... 3 hrs+ since 8am. I am on Stimetil, an anti-vomit drug, which happens to be sedative, and a POM. So I am feeling really lethargic. I vomited twice yesterday. And only had two meals in the last 48hrs. The others have been vomited out. This isn't the sort of detox I had in mind after coming back from holidays. And my studies? I am very worried. Getting really nervous. I don't have much time left. Less than 2 weeks before the first paper. I am needing a prayer. I am needing a miracle.

2012

3. Pat-a-pan

oh holy night

I feel so :( today... I just don't have the energy to say why...

I will just say some words... Hope that can fill you in with something...

Chem report... suck in Excel... tried to figure out... not friendly at all... don't know how to combine two sets of data in one graph... how to scale???... spent 3 frustrating hours... manage to do... learnt something new... Office crashed... saving fail... files can't be recovered... okay fine... redo... but got improvements... looking positive... saved in thumbdrive... turn on desktop... where my graph go???... didn't save in laptop... @#$%... redo... getting annoyed... played some music... facebook awhile... no one to ask on MSN... sighs... continue to redo... sleepy... headache... tried to sing... HAHA... I sound like a frog... back to work... no more stress... finish... plugged back into desktop... WHERE THE HELL???... file missing again... still didn't learn... no backup in laptop... moaning all the way... do again... sighs.. SIGHSS... no one to talk to still... sad... redo... craved for chocolates... mom gave away... sighs... talked to myself... encouragement... prayed hard... please give me strength... facebook... everyone so happy... Christmas... I should be too... saved a copy in laptop... open file in dekstop... AGAIN don't have?? Someone up there hates me... curses luck... checked back laptop... *Cries*... file also cannot open... redo again... @$%#@%$@%#%$... leaves file open in laptop... tried saving under different file type... transfer to desktop... still nothing... fed up... WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?? :( :'( ... don't feel like talking to anyone anymore... but secretly I do still... emailed file to self in different file types... all failed... suddenly Office crashed again... nearly last straw... wanted to weep... needed a hug so badly... pulled self together... went to check fantasy football... won 5-0... surprised myself... found a file which survived everything... contains everything... no need for redo... saved under PDF... still unreadable in desktop... finally... print screen and crop out graph... works... relief... things starting to look bright after 7 hours... next printer jammed... @%$#%@... WHY ME??... pulled paper out... nearly wanted to hit it... tried again... at long last... my graphs... took bath at 3.33am...

And... this is today's carol... Hope everyone is having a brilliant Christmas! Enjoy your holidays!

Gloria in excelsis Deo

7 days till Christmas!! Allow me to feature 7 personal favourite carols (in no particular order) from now till the Eve :)

1. Angels We Have Heard on High

"Glory to God in the highest"

MERRY CHRISTMAS

feeling you

Sometimes I feel that I could hear what you are telling me. I would listen dearly and carefully, trying to understand why you would tell me so. I speak to you like a friend whom would listen intently without judging, without questioning back. That's why I enjoy talking to you so much lately. But am I crossing over any fine lines?

Although the signals may be loud and clear, I regretfully misinterpret your messages quite regularly. Normally, I would make it seem to fair me the best. I would then be guilt-ridden for thinking of the fruits rather than hard work. That's why I would spend awhile deliberating, vacillating my options, observing the signs, and finally making my decisions hesitantly with confidence. However, I always can't help but wonder why I was given this route. Where would it take me? Am I really meant to be here?

I haven't been like myself like a few days back. I have not said much, I know. Perhaps I am still unclear about all these. I guess I can't see your plans yet. I am still unsighted, perhaps the significance escaped me for some reason. But, maybe I will soon see the divine mosaic which is yours. I have much faith and love with you. I will just hope for the best.

Faith walks

Born without front legs around Christmas 2002, Faith the puppy was rejected and abused by her mother. She was rescued by Reuben Stringfellow, who had been asked to bury other puppies in the litter.

Reuben turned Faith over to his mother, English professor Jude Stringfellow. At first the family had to carry Faith to keep her off her chest and chin. But with peanut butter and practice, Faith learned to walk on her two hind legs.

Today Faith is a brisk, upright walker. When she runs, every so often she adds a hop or skip to her step, but she stumbles less often than most humans. She takes vitamins and joint supplements, and vets have declared her very healthy.

They get more than 200 letters and e-mails a day, run a Web site and make dozens of appearances every year, including stops at veterans' hospitals across the country to cheer injured soldiers.

For many, Faith brings a powerful message about overcoming adversity. "Faith has shown me that different is beautiful, that it is not the body you are in but the soul that you have," Jill Salomon of Montreal, Canada, wrote on Faith's Web site.


"She just walks around barking and laughing and excited to see them all (Soldiers). There is a lot of crying, pointing and surprise. From those who have lost friends or limbs, there can be silence. Some will shake my hand and thank me, some will pat her on the head. There is a lot of quiet, heartfelt, really deep emotion."

- Jude Stringfellow -
Owner, Friend, Family

But Faith's most emotional reunion — with Reuben Stringfellow, who rescued her 7 years ago this Christmas — will have to wait for January. He's already gotten Faith a birthday present: a peanut butter cookie with her name on it.

Adapted from Yahoo

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This is me in Second Life.

Our Pharmacy module requires us to create an account. Otherwise, this would totally bore me. And yup.. wearing labcoat. GMP rules still in used here there. I don't know how to make my hair spiky. But got my chiseled chin and huge trunk :p

Oh... and free advertisement... Avatar opens today in cinema! :D

my day off...

How to write your daily horoscope....

Play your music at random - about 20 songs. So the titles will be something like that...


Far away True love at last Sometimes My destiny Believe True Patience This boy's fire Rule the world The way it used to be Take it all All day Fix you Hungry love Angel of music When you believe I do now To life Have yourself a merry little christmas Have yourself a merry little christmas


Then rewrite it nicely... to suit all people in general... at any given time.


Although Far away, you may find your true love at last. Sometimes your destiny Believes in True Patience. This person's fire Rule the world. The way it used to be, Take it all, All day to Fix your Hungry love. (As a prayer) Angel of love, When you believe, I do now! To life!

Now, Have yourself a great day! Have yourself a little day off!


Well yea... something like that... :p Can you do any better?

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unveiled

The moment you share that bit of news with a gasp and a "tee-hee" with that close buddy of yours, did you ever think that it would be closely guarded for good?

Whatever analogy you want to use, secrets are like the perfume people wear. They are like the "surprise" birthday parties we ourselves expect. They are like the weight that we gain. They are like the cost a gift. Sooner or later, people are bound to know... just like the recipe of a certain bakery in Malaysia.

People say I am rather secretive. I think I am just like everyone else. We all have our secrets. Sometimes, we feel that certain things are not necessary for others to know. Let's take A for example. I have known A for soooo loooong. It has been quite awhile since we hung out. I see him fairly often, and we would do small talks just to update ourselves on things. So it came as a surprised when I found out he knows B. Well alright... the world is small. So, fair enough. Okay... so nothing seemed so secretive here right? Wait..

So, B. Not much I can say. Just that we only knew each other. So anyway, we all had this big gathering, just to meet up. I got to know many of their friends. And somehow or rather, they chose that day to make a 'memorable' day for both A and B. Initially, I was confused by what's going on. I was even misleaded into thinking pleasantly surprised they were such a friendly bunch of people. I was talking to both A and B when they brought me aside, and had said they wanted to know me better over a drink. I was like "Okayy... sure." So I left A and B, and joined them. Before I could even say "Well... I am not that intere...", they were buzzing about A and B. What happened to the hospitality I wondered. Now when I think about it, it was such a BS. Their story had more bubbles than the Carlsberg I was drinking.

So, anyway... they proceeded to take pictures of everyone there. However, little did A and B know, that every single picture was just focused on them. So... yea... plenty of zooms and awkward camera angles. That's one way secrets can be unveiled. Two people whom I know fairly long enough, and not a word was shared about each other... ever! .... till that day.

Somehow, I was given the title CNN. It's a bit untrue. Sometimes I do filter, and I do keep secrets. So, I think that it's only half true that I am a 'pat kong' (gossip guy). I am not a Perez, nor a Richard. Perhaps my reputation precede me. I have learnt that 'with great power comes great responsibility' wtf... the hard way. I leaked some news out, which I never had expect to spread like wildfire. It did, leaving quite a destruction behind. From then, I vowed to use my 'ability' only for good purposes.

So, the news about A and B... well it wasn't that big of deal actually. But one of them didn't want it to resonate out of the circle. So it was just a few of us delocalised electrons that knew about it. But, as stressed earlier. Secrets?? Bah humbug! There's no such thing. Sometimes depending on the variety of external and internal factors, its half-life is quite small. In this case, after only 1 month, I heard the first crack in the dam. Some common friends deduced something... which was as accurate as they could be (My friends are smart). I actually didn't expect them to notice so well. But, granted with my 'ability', I covered for that friend. And I think all was forgotten. But I think the next crack would surely cause the flood. *Shrugs*

So... yea... my blog can be quite dead at times. Sometimes, I could have sworn I heard crickets in the background. But that's prob just me, grinding my teeth, while thinking what to write, pondering if I should let you kids into my sugary home. Since, all secrets aren't meant to last, I figured there should be no reason not to hide anymore. I have told someone the same thing, so it's only honourable to actually practise what I had preached. And, with that, I welcome you, the selected few, to lose yourselves, and waste your precious study time reading my mindless, meaningless, cryptic tales of the twisted mind, which is yours truly... Grinch :D

nothing is impossible

I love miracles.

I love buzzer-beating-winning shots.

viva la vida

"This is something we should all read at least once a week."
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio.

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

- Taken from AK -