sweet misery

"An eye for an eye,
Makes the whole world go blind"

no one else

strangely there was no longing of any sorts when I was out from one gift shop to another today. perhaps the numbness of truth and realization serves as a much needed panacea.

also...

"Good news? what good news?"
"X told me.." =)
"Owh" =))

knowing that someone is watching over you is all the special feeling that you need :)

great cover!

Hope

"A Light, no shadow can hide."


That's the beauty of music. They can't get that from you... Haven't you ever felt that way about music? Although it never and wouldn't make sense, it make sense when things are tough. You need it so you don't forget. Forget that... there are places in this world that aren't made out of stone. That there's something inside... that they can't get to, that they can't touch. That's yours.

That's Hope.

Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies.

- Shawshank Redemption -

!!!

Exams coming soon! Won't be posting in awhile... Meanwhile, read this thought-provoking article I found from The Star... enjoy :)

ONCE a professor asked his students: “Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?” The students thought for a while before one of them said: “We shout because we lose our calm.”

“But why shout when the other person is just next to you? Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice?”

The students gave various answers, none of which satisfied the professor.

Finally he explained: “When two people are angry with each other, their hearts distance. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the louder they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.”

Then he asked: “What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly. Why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small.

“When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak – they only whisper and get closer to each other in their love.

“Finally they do not even need to whisper. They only look at each other, that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.”

So, when you argue, do not let your hearts get distant or say words that distance each other even more, or there may come a day when the distance is so great you will not find the path back to each other.

nothing doesn't happen for a reason...

There are no coincidences... only the illusion of coincidence.

or better yet...


There are no coincidences... just God incidents.

once upon a new year..

So it's once again a brand new year. It's coming to the second day of the year from where I am. It got slightly chillier today. Rain showered in across the sleepy town of Nottingham, and to me, it's like a new beginning, starting the new year with a clean slate. Whatever that has happened in the last year or before that is of history, a major part of my life, but no more than needed-heeded lessons. It's a bit like how Jesus came, and took the nails for us. Because of His love, He died for us, to spare us and redeem us from all our sins. This humbling thought sometimes is the assurance I need to get through my days.

When we are lost, when we feel that no compass can guide us, whether it's a bright or cloudy day, with everything we wish for, we look up...



My resolution this year sounds simple, but requires much striving, dedication, discipline, and hard work; that is, to succeed.


There are two rules for success: 1) Never tell everything you know...
Roger H. Lincoln

post-christmas

Omgosh.. everything is so cheap... okay la.. a bit disappointed with some of the sales in Oxford Street, London. But I guess that's the only way they can get rid of the old stocks. I wished they would have sales for some of the new stuffs though.

On the hindsight, if you look carefully, you may uncover some gems that would suit you. It may be less popular, not the sale-able kind, but somehow it can work, and you can make it your own.

Also, things in supermarket is really cheap!! Picture this, from a 12 pounds salmon to 2.50! How's that for a 80% discount! Anyway, Tesco has been super generous to us today. Somehow, I picked a blur cashier, and yeah, she missed out on a couple of things :p I guess she was still in the giving mood :) :)

Oh.. and somehow I think I can see the silver lining in the cloudy/foggy days we have been having recently :) At least it keeps the place slightly milder here. Surprisingly, if it's sunnier, it could be colder around here.



P/s why is there a need to declare a public holiday for winning just one game. It isn't like we made a huge leap towards winning the world cup >.<

have a good holidays!

the gift

Stepping into the snow covered trail,
Can't believe I was so impatient.

Snow drifted across my face.

In football, in certain positions,
you know the goal is coming.
But sometimes, when it's left a bit late,
when it goes to injury time,
you get a little anxious.
You may try a different approach/tactic.
You speak to the Captain.
He says he trusts the team.
And so, I have to trust them as well.

And with the memories of Park's double in each half's injury time against Wolves.
I believed.

And even when the snow came down a little harder,
I believed.

And with the calmness of the Captain,
I believed.

And even when the clock is winding down, and the fat lady is starting to clear her throat,
I believed.

Because that's what Christmas is all about right?
Because when the snow fell, it felt like Christmas.
Because when I felt calm, it felt like Christmas.
Because when all I hear is joy and laughter, it felt like Christmas.
Because when the goal came, when you came, it felt like an angel's presence,
It felt like Christmas.

And I was there, and you were there.
And a group of candles flickered all around us.
And they have been flickering all this while,
my hope, my supporter, my friends.
And that is what happened.
And that is how I felt.

And like some drunk guy,
I speak of nonsense.
I laughed, and I thought it made no sense to laugh.
Because I was happy.
And I don't know why.

I guess it never did change.
I guess each time when the world is between us,
we had our arms around it,
keeping ourselves within reach.

We were that close, always together, and never apart.
Like the orbit of the Earth around the Sun,
Like the coming of seasons,
tomorrow shall come,
and so will you.

And when we part,
I never wanted to feel the pain,
Like the ripping of a plaster,
I wanted it to be swift.

The anticipation is never what I wanted.
Oh I wish it was Christmas everyday.
Because when the first day of after-Christmas comes,
I know I would have to wait again.
The feeling of missing is mixed with both joyous and longing.

So I said my goodbyes,
something which left something hard in my throat.
I wanted to turn away.
Because I couldn't bear seeing you walk away.
But you were still there.
And I was knew I was wrong.
Because I am glad, this was done slowly.
Even though a vortex was sucking me away from these place,
I knew I could be back again.
And with a hug and long farewells,
I tried to hide the unexpected tearing.
A long deep breathe helped,
and we were on our way.

Oh when you’re still waiting for the snow to fall
Those Christmas lights will light up the streets
And, maybe they’ll bring her back to me...